Monday , April 14th, 2014 | Posted By: Bud S. Moker, Th.C.
SMOKING DMT: EXPERIENCE BEYOND DESCRIPTION
Guest post by: C. H. Ronic
This past weekend I decided to try DMT for the first time. Because these types of hyperspace experiences are difficult to describe, I will break down my personal experience into categories:
Before my breakthrough DMT experience, I tried smaller doses twice as was recommended on so many other DMT posts. During the very first experience, I took only one medium hit and sat back on a couch. Instantly my body felt heavy (with a strong tingling sensation) and my vision turned from sharp edges to wavy lines. This type of body feeling can sometimes be associated with mushrooms, but in this case it came on almost instantly and increased rapidly until I was sure I was going to breakthrough. Since it was not my intention to breakthrough, and because I was alone, I began to think, “Oh no, I’m going too far.” And then I would counteract that thought by thinking, “Well, it’s too late to turn back now.” Then, after going back and forth between those two thoughts for 10 seconds or so I decided that I would try NOT to breakthrough by keeping my eyes open, but that I would accept whatever happened. So, I kept my eyes open and watched the interior of my house wave back and forth. The waves and the tingling subsided gently until everything reverted to normal.
During my second DMT experience weeks later, I was much more prepared and decided to try a medium dose before going for the gusto. This time, I had a “babysitter” (friend) nearby to take the pipe from me and to check on my every minute or so. During this second experience I went a little deeper than the first and was fairly certain that I would not breakthrough. Although the visions and feelings were more intense, I was in a safe place and was open to whatever the DMT experience could bring. This time, when I closed my eyes, I was able to see the chrysanthemum pattern that is talked about and depicted so often in artist renderings. [Approximate imagery below curtesy of http://images.wisegeek.com/stain-glass.jpg]. There was no doubt about what I was seeing and I explained it afterwards as a 3-D hallucination. The colorful and rotating pattern started above me, but had “arms” that were reaching down for me. Rather than a pattern superimposed upon reality, it was moving as if from its own energy source… its own reality. As I came down from this second, more intense experience, I was unsure if I would attempt to breakthrough to hyperspace or not. So, having heard that you should wait an hour between sessions, I noted the time and spent the next hour trying to act as normal as possible, while I mentally debated what my next step would be.
BREAKTHROUGH INTO DMT HYPERSPACE
About an hour and 10 minutes after my second experience, I decided that it was time to go all in. I called over my friend to help me (should I need assistance with the third hit) and I sat down on the couch. After the first inhalation, I could feel the familiar effects taking hold of me. Upon the second hit, I was already losing myself to the heavy body feelings and colorful patterns. Just before the third hit, I looked up at my buddy as if to say “Here we go!” and put the pipe to my lips. He encouraged me by saying, “You got this Dude.” Then I handed him the pipe and lighter, rested my head back and began the launch sequence.
Right away, I saw the chrysanthemum pattern again. This time, instead of arms reaching for me, the entire pattern moved from above me, to right in front of me and then enveloped me completely. I cannot recall the specifics of the pattern, but I seem to me to have been a pattern within a patter within yet another pattern. The above image is not mine, but it was the closest I could find. Here are things that I CAN recall.
Alien voices – I could hear strange voices talking around me, probably about me, possibly to me, but I was undoubtedly too wrapped up in my visions to see them… or they didn’t want to be seen.
Echoes – Every minute or so, my buddy would come to check on me. As he did, I could hear his approaching footsteps loudly, harshly and with an Echo effect. For every one footstep he made, I could hear a trailing echo of 5-8 footsteps in rapid succession.
Reality – For most of the DMT experience, I was aware of both the “real” world and the DMT world. The first time my buddy approached, I heard him and did not respond physically. The second time, I smiled in appreciation. (When I smiled in reality the DMT trip also got much more pleasant, so I kept the simle for the remainder of the trip.) The third time my buddy approached, I was already on my way down and I managed a little hand wave. Also, throughout the DMT trip I could hear my buddy and the owner of the house whisper to each other and I could hear the dog whining and barking outside. For the most part, the voices my ears heard (my friends) and the voices my head heard (the aliens) were totally distinct from one another… although I did question myself a couple times.
Cards – During one part of the DMT experience, I felt like I was in a deck of cards being shuffled. It was sort of exhilarating and not altogether unpleasant. Sort of like a roller coaster.
Talking to Myself – Unlink other substances which alter your personality, DMT seems to leave your regular thought pattern untouched. During the peak of my experience, I remember what Terrence McKenna had said about not being awed by the visuals and I repeated this to myself as sort of a mantra to try and get the most out of the experience. My brain seemed to be functioning normally, it’s just that everything I was experiencing was out of the ordinary. I could react in “normal” ways to the sights and sounds, but I didn’t know how to act toward what I was experiencing. Instead, I tried my best just to remain a witness to the experience.
Heart Arrhythmia – Throughout most of the experience, the only negative aspect was what felt like an irregular heartbeat. I cannot be certain that the beating of my heart was doing anything out of the ordinary, but it sure felt like it was. The only reference I have was from a time I used to take creatine phosphate for body building. Whenever I was on that supplement, I would notice my heart “skip” a beat every so often. If a regular heartbeat is thought to go, “Ba boom, Ba boom,” then my irregular beat would go, “Ba boom, Ba…………. BOOM.” I had even gone so far as to see a doctor about this back then and have my heart monitored for 48 hours or so: The results showed nothing out of the ordinary. However I could stop and start the creatine-induced arrhythmia by stopping and starting the supplement, so I determined the cause through self-experimentation. OK, so what out DMT? During my DMT experience, I started noticing that same Arrhythmia and it was pulling me from enjoying my otherwise awesome experience. In fact, it was the ONLY negative. (Not true, the dog barking and whining was pretty annoying too.) On DMT, as compared with creatine, I felt my heart do this irregular beat four or five times and then about eight times in rapid succession. (Ba…………. BOOM… BOOM… BOOM… BOOM… BOOM… BOOM… BOOM… BOOM). I can only hope that I was imagining the entire sensation and that the beats I heard were due to the same echo as heard in my friend’s footsteps.
As I began to come down from the experience, I first noticed that I had a body again. Before that point, it was more like a vivid dream. My spirit was 100% intact, but I wasn’t aware that I had a body so to speak. I guess you could say, quite frankly, that DMT causes an out of body experience of sorts. As far as I know, I didn’t move a muscle until I began to come down. At that point, I felt a little tension in my knees and straightened them out. I felt that the presence on the other side was saying “good bye” to me and it was a gentle and easy merge back into my better-known reality.
While it’s hard to say exactly what I saw, my DMT experience was filled with strange and brightly colored fractals in constant motion. To the best of my knowledge, I would have to guess that this is the pattern from which our reality is shaped. We see, hear, taste, touch and smell portions of this underlying pattern, but are usually unaware that there is anything deeper. However, I had sort of set my mind on this conclusion before smoking DMT, so I’m a little biased. Would I do it again? I would say FOR SURE except for that heart issue I mentioned above. Taking everything into account, I’ll have to say, more than likely.
I’ve read many instances of people having a difficult time with smoking enough to breakthrough, but I had no such experience. Each time I tried to reach a certain level, I would measure out the DMT, smoke it and… poof! However, after my breakthrough, my friend was persuaded to try just a little. He tried it three different times within 10 minutes and barely felt anything at all. Our assumption is that because he is a heavy marijuana smoker who does not have healthiest diet, the experience at that level was almost completely lost on him. On the other side of that coin, I practice a lifestyle which presently restricts the use of alcohol, caffeine, fast food, prescription meds, et cetera and includes daily yoga and meditation. This would make some sense as I know that those who use ritualistic ayahuasca are asked to adhere to a strict diet which is very similar to what I just mentioned. Because of this, I recommend a healthy and spiritual lifestyle to all… whether or not you do DMT is up to you.